Hello, everyone.
Usually I don't have many interesting things to write. Today is somehow different.
I'm still in shock and amusement. I don't know what to do.
I received absolutely sure message that computer science faculty was closed in my school.
Yeah.

So I'm no longer student- I guess. I can see only faint chance that I'll migrate to other public school and they'll somehow accept me. But I don't actually believe it. I don't believe in nothing no more.

From few days in a row I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep. And I don't have energy to fight for my own, not ot mention about drawing. I feel so empty inside. And hell lots of other annoying feelings which bothers me and I can't get through it.

So what to do next? No matter where I'll start I won't be content. next time will be my third time I'd start at college. heh, what a big loser I am. Seriously...

First time I didn't enjoyed it becuase there was no art in it.
and at the second time my faculty was closed. Just great.

I guess I'll start over again or have one year vacations. I've never felt so miserable, I wish you'll avoid my mistakes. I hope I won't commit such idiotic mistakes ever again.

But the worst thing is still ahead- how will I explain it to my parents? They'll kill me or I'll kill myself from grief. I feel so guilty. I really sense lack of words which would truly show the way I feel right now. It's just unspeakable.



and I guess I won't sleep through whole night.